Living my Life

As a teenager I was an acolyte at my church and was accustomed to the collection plates being heavy, solid silver.  One weekend my Dad took me to another church with his girlfriend, when the collection plate came along I was expecting solid, heavy silver.  Well, it was like a tin pie plate and I frisbeed it down the aisle.  My Dad was cracking up at both the plate and the horrified look on my face.

I have come to realize that I tend to only talk about him when I am venting about something I am angry with him about.  I feel so bad that I have lead good friends and family to believe that he is a nasty person.  When I realized what I was doing I tried to explain to a friend of mine that hubby is not evil but really a great person.  I explained how just sometimes I need to vent and that we are rarely angry for more than 15 minutes at a time but it seems that my venting has done lots of harm.  I don’t complain to everyone and now I wont to anyone, after all we get over our fits very quickly, but it hurts me how others now see hubby as a bad guy.

Hubby always is there for me when I need help because of my bipolar, he happily deals with my animal obsession.  He wants a child as much as I do, he is never anything but in love with me.  I feel safe and secure with him and any decisions he makes.  I really am a very lucky girl, I got married at 18 years old and have been married for 15 years now.  I want the world to know how special he is.

The pups each got a soup meat and bone.   I did have to help out Willow a little and cut up the meat some, her baby teeth just werent up to the task.

Jay has a prescription that requires a shot twice a month but the doctor wanted to do it and we have moved and it can now take us up to an hour to get there.  I give my dogs their vaccine shots myself so I have syringes available.  Today we decided to skip the doctor visit and do it ourselves… turns out that the needle used for dogs is lots bigger than the doctor uses or that the spot Jay picked for me to give the shot was the WRONG spot.  I felt so bad but also almost peed myself laughing.  Got to love the guy.

A few things have happened, I will try to do this on a more regular basis so I dont get so lost in what has happened. 

I was majorly sick for a few days, but am better now.  The pt for my knee is helping my ankle but my shoulder is really acting up and I have an appt next week with the ortho so I hope to start pt for it soon.

We went and saw the movie The Haunting of Molly Hartly.  Now dont read this part if you are going to see it and dont want our opinion on it.   OK, where was the evil Molly was to turn into?  She was happy in the end and everyone who died had it coming to them for trying to kill Molly.  In our opinion she was happy when it was all done with so if everyone would have just left her alone and not scared Molly she would have been happy the entire time.

Finally the Big News is

We started the adoption process, we have hired a consultant and a social worker.  I even got Eva from Dr Soto’s to help me out with the letter Dr. Soto needs to write for me so that it should be done by my appt on Monday!